Hmm Let's see. . .

I totally amaze myself at times. I am able to listen to others and put my finger on their pulse and diagnose a problem. However, when it is my own problem I can see it but feel unable to do what is necessary to set it back on the right track.

What is that about when you lapse back into old patterns? I know that I can make lasting changes I've done it in the past. But here's my theory. I think that often we try to do things are against our nature, because it seems like a good thing to do. Let's use working out as an example. I can make a list of all the reasons that it is beneficial, I can make a plan stick to that plan for a while but eventually snap back occurs. Back to the same old routine.

Many times we do what we think we ought to do rather than what we want to do. Laziness or complacency sets in and snap back. The guilt trips & self admonishment do little good in setting us back on track. However when you begin to do the things you want to do because you want to do them it seems as though it is smooth sailing all the way.

So here is my dilemma, no is not exercising. I love to write yet I don't on here where I want it to show up consistently. Now if you asked why if I love to write don't I write consistently? I might give you the first answer that presents to my mind. That I'm not writing from my honest space. That's the danger of doing writing or anything else for an audience, it inhibits you. I have to write for me not you. There I said it if I'm writing for you I'm trying to be conscious of what you want to hear or what you expect. How will you interpret what I'm saying?